well its been a long time since i've journaled, or done much w/ da, but i guess its time?
and partially bc i HAVE time now lol

a lot has changed since i last posted, so i'll try to change that, w/o going on and on and on lol

well my freshman year is over and i'm not going back next year.

i already miss all my friends, and wonder if i'm making the right choice *although ik i am... maybe?*

i'll be working prolly with AmeriCorp next year and while i'm pretty excited about it, i also have to start all over. :S i was just finding my REAL friend group and now i'm leaving...

>a lot happened since new years... <

i reconnected w/ nate, became good friends again, and then fell apart after *** erm too much stress on our relationship... but now we've gotten around to being civil and working toward being friends, but it'll be hard :S i miss that boy

i fell back to old habits... and then when i fought back, it didn't work out so well anyway!!

a guy i don't want is "crazy about" me and hes a great friend, but just um... EWWW NO!!! and so now i'm trying how to save a friendship w/o going further

i realized i can't save everybody, but its sok. i'm not everyones hero, and i can't be.... sometimes i just have to worry about myself- and that doesn't mean i'm selfish

i learned that everyone makes mistakes, and that we just have to live w/ the ones we make.

life lessons are the hardest to learn, but most often the most important.

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don't misread me- i'm still the confused, "emo", lonely, slightly less innocent, damaged, mistrusting, tragic girl, but i found a strength that i didn't know i had... !!! and so yeah, not much has changed, but at the same time, *E*V*E*R*Y*T*H*I*N*G* has...

i've missed this...

new stuff coming... erm... relatively soon. it needs editing and revising before its good enough to be up here :S